Saturday, December 31, 2016
Little Miss Sunshine's gonna steal herself some shadow.
I was driving away from Los Angeles when I heard Carrie Fisher had died. I always feel a bushel of maternal protectiveness for Hollywood damsels who become emblematic of what society thinks about women; living martyrs, consumed by our voracious appetite for symbol. I did not love her right away, though, because I am suspicious of popular things, and I never want to read the best sellers, dance to the number one records, or see the big films until the hoopla has left the building.
And so, I grew to love Carrie Fisher slowly: I saw her in Star Wars six years after it was released (see above). I loved that she was a wise acre, I loved that she was a writer, and I loved that she married a musician for only a matter of months. I loved that she crawled out of her own hell, over and over, because everyone does, or doesn't. I loved that her fame was a hairshirt for her. I imagined meeting her and telling her it was okay; she was all right with me, no matter what, with or without Star Wars and metal bikinis and addiction. Yes, she was all right with me, just for trying to be herself in the first place.
Here are two songs to contemplate: Carry on my wayward daughter, and she moves on.