Showing posts with label apologies. Show all posts
Showing posts with label apologies. Show all posts

Monday, October 16, 2023

sense comma common

 








Dear Friends to Whom I May Owe a Lifelong Apology,

A funny thing happened to me on the way to the library the other day; I noticed, thinking about an article I'd read on a study they'd done that proved no one had an innate 'sense' of direction, for the first time, that I was a veritable fount of trivial information.  Beyond just trivial, out-moded, even disproved knowledge.  Possibly even false-at-this-point-in-time information.

I had thought, in the years gathering this knowledge, that it was what we were supposed to do, as humans: we were to collect, learn, gather as much info about ourselves and our environs as possible (role model:  Mr. Spock?).  I also thought it might come in handy 'someday.'  This, of course, is sublimely silly, and not just because we carry pocket computers all day everyday.  The silliness is well illuminated in something I read in Stanislaw Lem's Mortal Engines:  The Pygmelliants, Hoarders of the Absolute, "...collect knowledge, but never use it"...which is how they remain unparalleledly wise.

The deployment of all this (trivial) information may not be wise, even if it could be described as learnèd.  Which simply means all the things that I know, the things I am forgetting, are just as well forgotten.  (Ah, sharp readers, yes, another circle!)  Having the sense to know when to tell it and when not to is something I should have been honing as I collected all this stuff (which, sadly, can't just be sold on Ebay).  

What I propose to do now, is to apologize for giving this information out, here and there, now and then, all along:  Opps, my bad!  No one likes a know-it-all anyway, and that's not trivial knowledge, that is a kind of truism, that we all know somehow.  Until the next gaffe, be well!





PS

Affirmative, you should read it; it makes your mind better and your writing sweeter, and it never needs winding.







Friday, February 21, 2020

not sorry socks





He told
me not
to say

"I'm sorry."

Women whispered to me:
he hates women
who say

"I'm sorry."

The obvious thing here is that I hate men who hate women who say
"I'm sorry."

But now is not the time for that.

Now
is the time
for how could I be not sorry?

If I wore, on my ankles, the socks I saw
last night in a shop
that said
"Not Sorry" on them,
if I wore them every day,
if I slept in them,
if I never took them off, and
every time I took a step I thought and read: not sorry, not sorry, not sorry, stepping out a
sorryless cadence all the livelong day,
would I be less sorry?

Because I am sorry, really sorry.
I am sorry I interrupted you,
I am sorry I was jealous,
sorry that I didn't listen.
sorry that I missed the boat,
sorry that I was too fearful,
sorry that I hurt you,
sorry that I only thought of myself,
sorry that I ignored you,
sorry I stopped talking to you,
sorry I didn't love you,
sorry I couldn't understand you
sorry that people suffer &
die.

I am not not sorry at all, and
if you think
that you can take the sorry from the girl,
and absolve yourself,
you are very wrong, mister,
and I am not
sorry
to inform you.




Tuesday, February 28, 2017

The Glad Game
























Dear One,

I try not to say fatuous and stupidly optimistic things to you, I try not to soothe with clichés and false promises, but I know, I know that I have been misunderstood.  I know that I have said the thing that makes you mad.  The thing that dismisses your world, the thing that ignores the obvious.

In the fullness of time, I hope, that maybe it won't matter.  Maybe it will turn out to be nothing.